I drove to the gym…but couldn’t get out of the car…
I decided to go for a walk, changed clothes probably 6 times, nothing seemed to look ok…finally decided on something to wear…and left home.
Once I was driving, I decided to go on a couple of errands instead. Afterwards I drove to the gym. Haven’t been there is so long…I was embarrassed. I was stuck… Couldn’t get out of the car.
Drove home.
Maybe once it is dark I will muster up the courage to step out again. Right now, I just want to go to bed and pull the covers over my head.
I am only a couple pounds more than I was the last time I started, but this time…I just feel HUGE! Defeated…sad.
Keep thinking, what is the point? Failure on top of failure is mounting up to seem like a mountain before me.
Does anyone have any climbing gear I can borrow?
“It is never the fall that kills, it’s the sudden stop at the end.” - Mountain Guide’s Handbook
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” The Beauty of the Mountain is hidden for all those who try to discover it from the top, supposing that, one way or an other, one can reach this place directly. The Beauty of the Mountain reveals only to those who climbed it…” - Antoine de Saint-Exupery
I hope you make it to the gym. If it’s too hard today try again tommorrow. I’m sure once you get back in the gym you’ll be glad you did.
Goethe said that “Mountains cannot be surmounted except by winding paths.”
Al Neuharth (founder of USA Today) stated: “The difference between a mountain and a molehill is your perspective.”
This hesitation to go to the gym is just part of your journey up the mountain. You’re already traveling the path - there’s no reason to stop now, is there? Just keep following the path, at your own pace. Ever forward, chin held high. Best wishes!
I’ve done that before. You have to just make yourself go. Maybe tomorrow…
I have totally done that. I used the “There’s no parking” excuse to my boyfriend (while he was in the car with me) and we drove home. You can totally do it. Anyone that cares about what you are doing at the gym has no business being at the gym anyway. Everyone should focus on their own body instead of who’s is walking in the door. Do what’s good for you! : ) You can do it.
I hope you make it there tomorrow. You can do it & you will be proud!
hey Chrisie never give up ok? We all gain some, and lose some. Sure I got on the scales this morning to find myself heavier than what i was when I joined this site a year ago! It happens. We just get back on that weightloss wagon and keep on going.
Its pretty never racking - but I guarantee once there, u’ll walk out feeling pretty pround - comon u can do it!
Chrisie,
dont ever give up girl. There is always hope as long as we dont give up the fight. This is such an emotional battle and it sure takes a toll on us. As for the gym, you can walk in there-dont worry about the pounds-cause no one knows-if anything that may be thinking..way to go girl, come in here and get healthy with us. Anyone with negative thoughts can just kiss your butt. This journey is for you girl and no one else.
I’m so happy to see your blog girl, its been a long time. Hugs!!
Welcome back Chrisie!!! I’ve really missed you
You are such a strong woman, and from before when you were here on BuddySlim, you were such a motivator and I KNOW you will get back on track.
I have those dark days, believe me. More then I want, so I understand.
Remember….God’s right there for you, just grab his hand and let him help guide you!!!!
Hugs
Jane
You can do it, Chrisie, and we are all there with you.
awwww, I think going to the gym is an embarrassing feat too. There are always gorgeous people there and then I feel frumpy, fat and worthless. I secretly dream of having a gym membership and going in there and working out. I had a membership for 2 years in San Diego literally one block from my house, but used the gym once! I was so afraid of looking bad, or being an embarrassment to myself. I think the first time you go is the hardest and then it gets easier. You deserve that gym as much as anyone else there! You are paying for it, so go in there and use it! Don’t feel bad! Then, come back and share with us about it. Then that way it feels like we are actually going there with you, and you won’t feel so alone.
I am changing this title from couldn’t to wouldn’t.