Becoming a Butterfly

I feel like the butterfly in me is spreading her wings…

I am excited and hopeful!!!!

Today I got my hair lightened…a totally new thing for me.  (trying to put a new pic on my page:)

Then, when I got home, I just found out, I got a promotion!  My supervisor emailed me with compliment after compliment…and told me she was promoting me!  Wow…

AND now I am working out and eating right.  No more caterpillar binging!

I have found a personal trainer.  Someone that is tough, but sensitive, like myself…and is a single mom like I was…

All of this is completely a new thing! 

The whole time I raised my son, I could never have done this…never have spent money on myself, without tons of guilt.  The years of abuse from men and pain of the past made me eat for comfort.   And hide myself below layers and layer of fat.

But now…it is a new day….

AND It feels so good to love on me!

To FINALLY learn to fly freely!

F inally

L oving

Y  ourself

I am going tomorrow to get my hair lightened from dark brown to a dark blonde with lighter highlights.   He likes lighter hair…so I am doing it to please him.  I HOPE it looks good this time.  Don’t get me wrong, I want my hair to be lighter now too…but it is more for him than for me!  This is a big step for me and I hope a wise one!   My husband just started working again, and I want to do something very special for him.   Besides, it is just hair, and it always grows back: )

Today I tried to eat only 1200 cals, but I couldn’t do it.  I was sooooo hungry!  I ate the 1500…but then still wanted more.  I know TOM should be coming soon…so maybe that is it.  I also didn’t workout today, cause I had to work.  They called me in, and I thought I’d be there from 1-10:00…but then it turned out to be from 3:30 - 10…but I took advantage of the extra time and took a power nap…instead of working out!

I sure love where I work!  We all get along so great and laugh together so much.  So grateful that God sent me there.

Tomorrow is a new day, and I will be calling/emailing my new trainer to start setting up times to get together.  Still nervous, but excited! 

Thanks again to everyone that was there for me during the decision to get a trainer…and do something just for me!

You guys all rock and I know together, we can do it!