Confession: good for the soul and the waistline?
I just called the researchers and told them…I took a break. No writing, no exercise…no diary for them this week. I dreaded it. Didn’t want to call them and confess it. It is embarrassing. A 45 year old woman acting like a toddler in her terrible 2’s. I wanted my will back. I didn’t want to do the work any more. Knew that once I made the call, then it was official, I’d HAVE to get back into the game. They were encouraging…saying I have done so much and worked so hard that they are sure I will not give up now. But…that is a fear of mine…I have been a quitter in the past.
My weight is the same, and my period is starting to go finally…so I am set now to start again. I had planned to yesterday…but TOM had me down for the count…and I just stayed in bed all day. Worn out…physically, emotionally.
Will I do it today? At this point…I really can’t say. I hope so, it is a record high here…but I have a gym membership…so I don’t really have an excuse.
I am dealing with some personal stuff too. Trying to sort it all out. Need a full time job, and having problems in my marriage.
Want to make good decisions…and do the right thing! If you think about it, will you pray for me–for wisdom and God’s will? Thanks!
You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope the rest of the week goes better for you. Good luck on your weight loss journey
You are in my prayers as always, Chrisie. Now you need to take care of yourself. You will know what to do when the time is right. Don’t try to rush it.
Sending thoughts of a better day for you as well as prayers….hang in there!
I just said a prayer for you girl. I hope things get better for you in all areas of your life. Hang in there!
Don’t forget who put you two together — if He wanted you together — well, He doesn’t change.
Remember how much Satan hates marriage and especially women who want to serve their Lord.
This is an attack, the Bible doesn’t say that the devil is dumb — just wrong. He is a thief and a murderer — don’t believe his lies.
A friend of mine recently said, “when the devil has me up against a wall and the fighting is tough, i just think, ‘now i have him where i want him!’”
Hang tough, get out your sword and FIGHT!!!
i’m praying for you.
love you lots!!!
I have every faith that you WILL think ALL things through and that you will be guided in your decisions.
Fear… it’s a toughy alright. It holds us back in so many ways. It’s what comes we when don’t live “in the moment”.
Let us not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness. Love that. Staying in the moment can be hard, but with concious practice, it gets easier and easier to do.
Big HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS,
Shan
I just talked to my Christian counselor friend briefly…and he is going to help me try to sort it all out. So grateful. Praying God will speak to him clearly. I think I am starting to see some sunrays coming through the rain. If I will just keep looking up:)
Very proud of you for hitting it head on. Your name was in my prayers today, too. Love you!
Hang in there and try to do better! With exercising, just make yourself do it! I always feel better afterwards, usually.
I’d just learn from it, try even hard next week (or this week). My motto is you never fail unless you give up…take care of yourself. Hopefully the weeks to come will be better?
*hugs*
You are on the top of my prayer list Chrisie. I hate to see you sad and struggling. Now more then ever depend on your strong FAITH…let God take your hand and guide you. I have faith he knows the right path for you. Stay strong..I know how hard it is. I’m here for you if you need me ok? Love ya….big hugs today
You guys are the best!!!!! THANK YOU from the bottom of my HEART!!!!
awe, take care and hope the soul is feeling a little better. it’s great that you are ready to get back to it - you have really been making such tremendous effort and commitment to yourself. you do not have to be a quitter just because you have quit things in the past. hope life at home settles a bit, too, sounds like you are getting it from all over. that trip to the gym may be just what you need. hugs for you!
…It’s important to remember, When life should send you pain. that for anything to grow, it sometimes needs the rain…(from another of my poems) Just think of this as a growth period for you. Watch for the Rainbows. You’ll come out stronger in the end.
wowsie wow wow…I am writing another blog…I am stoked!
when life gets hard it is tough to remember we need to take care of ourselves too. sometimes it is all we CAN do. you are in my thoughts