A rainbow butterfly, a gift, for me?
Surprise! Look what just came in the mail for me!
Some of you may remember my blog about seeing this in a window in the mall. It stopped me dead in my tracks…and I went into the store and tried not to show my excitement, or drooling, to the sales clerk. I had just been blogging about being a butterfly that God’s light would shine through to reflect His glory…the day before…and then I saw this.
I wanted it…I mean in a bad way. But decided, when I found out how much it cost, to delay my gratification…and to just wait and make it a goal/gift once I had lost 50lbs.
This past weekend, my husband and I had a rough weekend. Experienced a bump in the road so to speak. He lost his job unexpectedly in December, and started a new career (against my counsel)…and it is not going well. He is at a loss of what to do next…and so it is making it harder for him to do anything.
I was a single mom for so many years, and the thought of having to support a man…well…let’s just say…I don’t want to. All the years of providing for myself and my son has left me very tired. I waited so many years for my husband to come. I was celibate, waiting on God’s choice for me. His will. I dreamed of the man that would “provide” for me. When my husband came into my life, I heard the Lord say, this is your husband. So I know, he is God’s choice for me.
But in my frustration with him…(in combination with my TOM) I threatened to leave him and pushed him away. I was mean… And mad.
Since then we have talked, made up and things are much better. Well, he told me today, it was during this rocky time, that he ordered this for me…for my birthday next week, but it came early…and he went ahead and gave it to me.
I cried. He cried. It was so sweet. He looked at me and said, “I want to take care of you. I love you.” I believe him.
I believe God has a purpose for everything…and I think He is saying something to me through this. So many people here keep telling me that I am already a beautiful butterfly…so…that’s what I think God is saying. That even though I am not perfect on the outside…yet…
He already sees me that way!
But there is more…
I should show the same grace to my husband, even though he isn’t successful right now, doesn’t mean he won’t be one day. I should show him more respect and see him as God sees him too! Encourage him…that in God…and in my eyes…he is already perfect!
Wow, God is so awsome. I pray that he lets you love and see your husband with the eyes and heart of Christ.
The butterfly is beautiful….like you!!
((((cyber-hug))))
Why did you have to make me cry on a Friday? Monday would have been fine, possibly Tuesday but a Friday? You are very special. I am glad you have joined this site.
Your a smart lady Miss Chrisie! It usually takes me longer to “get it”. It is an undescribable feeling when we “get” what God is saying to us and know that He knows we know…ya know?
Gorgeous butterfly as a reminder!
Sobbing sobbing Tissue Time cant talk. -Dee
Awwww, Chrisie!! you are such an angel!! This is awesome, you just made me tear up, too!! Keeping you in my prayers!
Chrisie! This is so “The Gift of The Magi”. You hang it where you and your husband will be reminded of your shining love for each other.
Chrisie, His butterfly! His love, compassion and beauty do shine through your wings. He will take care of you as your reward. Your husband will get his break and the two of you will rejoice once again. As you were just told, be sure to keep that fabulous butterfly (in the picture you sent us) in a place where you will be reminded how wonderful your husband can be.
Hmm, here I go again…lots in common…LOTS! It is a nice feeling to have someone so close to you know, what makes you feel good, what hits home for you. You are lucky to have someone in your life that takes all the things you love into account. I too am blesed with this. (at least I am lately)…..but who cares, some are just a little slower than others… lol
Wow, you really dug deep on this one Chrisie. I truly believe that God speaks to us through our feelings and instincts, and that sometimes those light bulb moments are our spirit speaking directly to us. I’m so glad that you’ve come to peace with your situation, and I wish you only the best to come. I will tell you this: until you want what you have, you’ll never have what you want. So kudos to you!! Blessings!